That Big Mistake

Everybody has made that one mistake in their life that seems to judge who they are for the rest of it. Mine was embezzling my from a long time employer. One day I was a little short and got the bright ideal to take a few dollars and put it back on payday, which worked out fine until 10 became 20 and then 100 and 1000 you get the picture. It didn't take long to be far more than I could pay back, in a matter of months I was in way over my head. I sat in my office day after day trying to figure out why and how, answers that today I am still unable to come up with. People used to respect me, be proud of what I had accomplished and how far I had came. Now they go the other way when they see me out. Worst it is not over still waiting on courts decission. The what if's haunt my every thought--what if I go to jail, what if the payments are more than I can afford, will I ever be able to get another job after this. One day I will have to tell my children and try to teach them fight from wrong, how? Will they lose that sparkle when they look at me the way my husband did? I lost more than a job that day. Some things just can not be undone and never worth the final cost.